Lost. Not only the meet today against Torrey Pines, but my motivation for the season as well.
I made it my goal back at the end of last season to compete in CIF this year. But as the season continues, my times are no longer dropping, and I recognized tonight that my goal is no longer possible.
One dual meet remains, and then the regular track season of 2013 is officially over. And I'll be a senior. It's disturbing, the idea that I cannot and will not achieve my goal. But it's reality. Week after week of useless long jumps practices, shin splint pain, physical therapy--and suddenly, without even getting anywhere, my season is nearing its finale.
Still, I will do my best in next week's meet; but from then on, I'm not even sure I'll make league prelims. My times, my adrenaline, my hunger to improve as well as my ability to improve, have all flat-lined. The disappointment haunts me everyday, as I cling onto varsity with my fingertips.
One meet left. And then we enter our final season of high school track.
~Dr. Z
